Seriously??? I mean... SERIOUSLY?!?!

So, la-di-da I am minding my own business last night and was entirely intending on going to bed early to get some decent shut-eye. But I went out of my room for about 45 minutes or so and I watched my Rock of Love 2 episode real quick before I went to bed. By the time I got back to my room... (and I was in a good mood after watching hot Bret Michaels) I see my phone flashing. I didn't know if someone had called or texted. I saw the little envelope... oh, great. A text. It's not like I've been going over by at least $20 for the past 2 months... who didn't get my memo about not texting me?!?!

So, I look to see who it's from... the number looks familiar but isn't one saved in my phone. And the message is this: "i know you don't want me to bother you anymore but i really miss you. everyone is entitled to one huge mistake" So, I start reaching the corners of my mind trying to figure out who the HECK would send me this message. I was hoping it was someone... someone telling me that he was going to have a finalized divorce soon and that he'd be with who he should've always been with soon.... but I have his number and he knew not to text me... and he would've just emailed me all that info. So, I went to the only other person I could think of that it'd be... Skyler. I remembered that when I was trying to determine where the heck he was that one of his friends had given me an update on him, including a different number than he had formerly been using to contact me. I didn't put it in my phone because I honestly thought I was done having to deal with all that stupid stuff!

So, I come to my email from that person, and sure enough, the numbers match... and I'm IMMEDIATELY filled with rage and annoyance. Seriously??? SERIOUSLY?!?! Are you FREAKING kidding me???? Get a clue... Take a hint... When I take time to write you an email 3 times longer than this post is at this point, that means something! Especially when it's entirely about how you screwed up... and that just because you feel guilty about what you did it doesn't entitle you to anything from me... and it certainly doesn't obligate me to forgive you... or to have ANYTHING to do with you. When I sent that message, I said don't ever contact me again and I meant it!!! I'm sorry, but cheating on me with another woman (while you made up some elaborate story about having some sort of mental breakdown and having to seek professional help from a shrink) and then impregnating her... and eloping with her 1 week after I get an annonymous message on MYSPACE, for crying out loud... it just ISN'T FORGIVABLE! I think it's hilarious that someone like that thinks what they did is a mistake that's forgiven...

Nevermind all that... It's not even the actual act of cheating (although, I do kinda enjoy telling that story, because it's so unbelievable... I think it's HILARIOUS that it actually happened to me... it's like a character in a movie's background story or something... seriously!) The thing that TICKS me off about him is that for 3 months... the first 3 months... I was completely and entirely happy and thought I had finally found my match... and he KNEW that... he knew that's what I was looking for... he was acting a part... and then slowly after 3 months he started letting the 'real' Skyler out. The Skyler that suddenly didn't want any kids, the Skyler that was incredibly blunt and would call me stupid (which I'm the farthest thing from!) the one that for the last 2 months could care less if I was even around... so much so that he made up a crazy story so I'd give him space enough to cheat... playing on my being an understanding and non-smothering person. So, tell me... how is it someone like this "really misses me"???? HOW? If he realizes what he screwed up... well, that's his mess to deal with... not mine.

All of this is second to the fact that I do know he's moved back here to San Antonio... and unfortunately he's a very confrontational person. He also knows where I live... which is VERY bad... because I wouldn't put it past him to try and FORCE me to talk to him... I don't know what I'd do if he approached me somewhere. I mean, he's built like a line backer on a frame of 6'4"... and I'm this puny little 5'6"... yeah I've been going to the gym, but I'm not some superstar all of a sudden that could kick his butt...! ***SIGH*** I can't blog about this anymore right now... I'm fuming again... Any advice I would be VERY grateful for... as you can see... I'm swimming in a bunch of questions, but can't provide myself with very many answers... (mainly regarding how I keep him from confronting me if I continue to ignore him)