I'm a little bit scared!

I'm just a bit scared. And not for anything in the very distant future... but in the future nonetheless! I will be going to visit a friend in L.A. after their significant other (who has been going through a program to officially have his license to fly privately) offered to fly to San Antonio to pick me up and to then fly me back. As of now, we're looking at the weekend before Thanksgiving. Why am I nervous? It's a Cessna... and I have been reading a blog for over a year now... and the past year of the blog has been the woman's recovery from being in a plane crash... a Cessna plane crash. The plane burst into flames on impact, and she was burned on 85% of her body. She was in a coma for 6 months after the crash... and now she's on a slow road to recovery. She had flown in this plane a million times before this... and this one day, something happened and she wasn't okay afterwards... this has changed her life forever. Anyhow... I'm scared about flying anyway... but I really want to be able to go and see my friend and their significant other so I think I'll just have to buck up and deal with it... it's only... what... a 4 hour flight at most? There... and then back... eep! I'll make it.

In other news I've been entirely too busy... but I am getting really excited for Halloween... we're going to have a get together at the D3's... I'm making all the deliciously spooky food and such... and we're just going to have a blast!!! I'll most definitely have to post pictures afterwards. :)

Here Comes Halloween!

Halloween is quickly on it's way! This picture of my nephew made me remember what fun I used to have as a child... I've always loved Halloween. When I was in elementary school, there were several days out of the summer where rather than going outside to ride my bike all day long, or play in my sandbox, I would opt to stay indoors. I'd ask my mom if I could shut all the curtains up to block out the light.... and she would humor me. I'd close all the blinds... I'd make it as dark and creepy as could be, and then I'd request to play my Halloween record on the turntable hooked up to the stereo system. Again, she'd humor me. I'd have the sound effects going, and I'd get out my big drawing pad and box of crayons. Have I mentioned I love the smell of crayons? Have I also mentioned that I STILL have an old cookie tin FULL of crayons from throughout my elementary school years? Yeah, for those of you that don't realize, a good portion of those crayons are over 20 years old!

Anyhow, back to the story... I would make "Halloween decorations" by drawing pumpkin pictures and Frankenstein pictures as well as mummies and other ghoulishly delicious images. I would do this for a good portion of the day. I guess I am what people would've called a strange child because of this... but otherwise I was very normal... aside from the bookworm part of me (and that is still there... also the musical side... we'll tackle the story of how I watched Amadeus so many times during elementary school that I memorized the entire script and all the musical transitions from scene to scene!)... and I'm okay with that... :) I leave you with a song that always makes me think of Halloween!

"In the Hall of the Mountain King" Peer Gynt, Grieg

On a blustery, rainy day... comes clarity...

It's been blustery... well, what I would consider blustery for San Antonio, TX at least! We've had a lot of rain and windy weather and we have had the first real cold front where it's stayed nice and cool for more than one day. I've enjoyed the weather quite a bit... even though I had to venture out in it for church this morning.

I got to thinking today about a few things regarding my faith (what else are you supposed to do in weather like this... besides fight the rain and cold to try a new church out?). No I am not a crazy, introspective person most of the time. Yes, I have faith, but it's still growing and no I do not always succeed in being a woman of the Lord. I'm human... I have faults, and trust me there are many! I just try to be a good person and try to do the best I can to remember to pray and put others first as much as I can. It's hard... it's hard when we live in a world that's so focused on doing things for ourselves a lot of the time. Anyhow, sitting in church this morning (a new one, by the way... I'm still trying to find a new church home) listening to the pastor talk about how we have to make God first in our lives (which of course I sat there and nodded my head, because I know this... do I always succeed in doing this? Of course not... it's difficult to put your complete, and full trust in an entity you can't physically see!) I knew that this was true. Then the next segment of church showcased a phrase that the church used last weekend as they went out into the community and did works of God... works of service to the community in the form of providing food, or cleaning services, etc... "Don't just go to church... BE the church."

"WOW," I thought to myself, "have I been truly doing this? Am I just going through the motions most of the time? Do I ever truly just brim over with God's love and work in service of Him?" I try to... I can say that, but do I try constantly, 100% of the time? Do I only try when it's convenient for me to do so? Do I spend money on myself without first thinking of how much money I could set aside per month to put into servicing others? Man... I'm selfish. Then I thought about the good things I have in fact done, and I didn't feel as bad... I'm not completely selfish. I do give to charity organizations... and for Heaven's sake I'm molding the young minds of society by setting an example of a compassionate, and nice person.

Anyhow, I hope that I can do better in this arena of my life... it's something I constantly have to strive towards. Especially the giving myself and problems and worries completely over to Christ. That's a hard one for me... I don't know if it's because I can't trust things to be okay, or because I have some control issues I'm not aware of.... but I think if I could just fully put my trust in God and hand all my worries over to him, things may be different in my life. I need to just let God take care of me.

Okay... now that I'm off my Holy Soapbox... I think I may actually have a better week this week...!

Don't stop... believin...

Things have remained crazy and chaotic at work. And it seems things in the rest of my life are no better. I have a couple friends that are guys... friends I've known awhile. It seems that each is vying for my attention recently. I don't really know what that's all about... but it is what it is and I'll deal with it as curve balls are sent my way.

I'm ready for this week... I'll have a tad bit of a break at work because I'm going to a training on Tuesday... which I get to sleep in a bit for... :) Yesssss! Anyhow, I am really looking forward to it! It's a training on Autism; basics about the disorder and then a bunch of things that can be done to aide in the school situation (and probably life in general for a lot of them). I also am made to think they'll be focusing a lot specifically on Asperger's Autism quite a lot... which is good because I work with several kiddos that have Asperger's.

Anyhow, the rest of the week should flow wonderfully... well, I hope at least. I'm really hoping to spend a good amount of time with my best friend this week. We want to take a girl's weekend. I have no idea what the plan is, but I can't wait... it will be much needed!!! You don't realize how much you love and miss your friends until you house/dog sit for them over the weekend. It's strange to be in a best friend's house and not hear the laughter and fun that normally goes on with them there the same time as you!