Growing apart...

It's never easy losing friends. Especially friends that you've had for 20+ years.

Unfortunately, I'm having to phase someone out of my life because of the person they've chosen to date. This person is a TOXIC force in their life, but they refuse to see it... or they are too lazy to look or don't think they deserve to NOT settle. I don't know the real reason, honestly.

What alarms me is the changes this significant other of theirs said he would make... he isn't making. At all. Not in any way that matters, at least. Admittedly, he won't even get the chance with me... They dated for about 3 years... she was totally unhappy... they split up and got back together about 20 times in a month. It was ridiculous... they'd break up, and the next day he'd show up in her office crying, and begging her to come back (unstable, btw)... What was the final straw was when he called her after they'd split talking about jumping off a bridge here in town... the police actually came and got him and took him in... he wasn't still getting ready to jump at that point, he was in his car pulled off on the side of the road on the bridge; therefore, they couldn't charge him with anything, he was drunk so they took him in and put him in a holding cell until someone could come pick him up. He STILL attempted getting her back. Even going as far as messaging me... wrong move, buddy. I let him have it. He wanted me to A)Not tell my friend he'd contacted me... first time EVER contacting me, btw, in the 3 years they dated... and B)wanted me to call him... Um, no.

Anyhow, so they were split for about 1.5-2 months... and I found out upon coming back from Canada they'd gotten back together. REALLY???? Obviously this person has issues if they'd consider KILLING themselves. Anyhow... she apparently feels he's all better after going to counseling for a month. He said the ways he would change were to hang out with her family and friends more. Well, he will never see me... so let's let that alone... But I'm pretty sure he hasn't had ANY interaction with any of her family. WTF??? He's back to the same-old-same, and SHE DOESN'T SEE IT. Am I wrong for feeling this way??? I don't want to be around someone like that... especially after I was really blunt with him... I don't want to be around her by default because I'm afraid he may show up if we go to do something together. Ugh... I know that he doesn't really do anything with anyone she was friends with before him and they always hang out with his friends because I see her FB tags for when they're out... all the people tagged are HIS FRIENDS.

I just don't get it. I know one of the reasons I'm single is because I will NOT settle... but, I'm okay being single if it means I don't A)sacrifice myself and my identity for someone else, and B)I don't date a jerk just to not be single!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

::end rant::

It's over... It's over... It's over...

As Lisa Loeb would say in her song. The school year is officially over. Because I'm still waiting to hear back if I have a job next year, I had to move ALL my school stuff out of the classroom and back home. It's occupying the garage right now, I'm just glad I have great and fantastic women on my team who helped me load the last bit of it Saturday morning. :) I will REALLY miss them if I don't get to come back to my campus and get placed somewhere else in the district.

In other news, I really intended to post on Friday night, but Friday turned out to be a terrible day. My dog (Dioji; pronounced D-O-G)

had to be put to sleep. She had been under the weather for about a week. The doctor suspected something with her spleen or liver and was going to do an ultrasound Monday morning to get a better idea of what was going on. He scheduled that on Weds morning. By Friday afternoon, she was having seizures and my mom had to get her in pronto. They made the decision that the best thing for her would be to not prolong her life for her to suffer. They were pretty sure she was starting to bleed internally, and there really was little that could be done to help her for more than a month at most.

It's never easy losing a pet. Especially a pet that is 15 years old and you've had since they were a pup. Anyhow, we just love our vet so much. They told us to go on our vacation, clear our minds, and when we return to give them a call and they will have her ready. We arranged for her to be cremated. So, we will have her back with us when we retur

n. I miss her very much, but I know she's in a better place and waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge. :)

RIP Dioji, the family misses you terribly!